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My 2010 Wish-To-Do List

Because 2009 flew by leaving a lot in my to-do list undone, and because I can’t really expect to do even half of what I want to do, I made a list of things I wish I can accomplish by 2010. I can only try to make it happen, so wish me luck!

• Write on Milo’s baby book. It’s still wrapped in its packaging. Hopefully I get to it before he turns 21.


• Find virtual work. The earlier I can start, the earlier we can come home.


• Buy a house/condo in MM. This will make coming home more real!


• Find money to buy a house/condo in MM.


• Organize the UP Alumni Association (The Next Generation) and start the REAL lantern parade tradition here. After attending this year’s UPAA “lantern parade” (without lanterns, but with a parade – going in a circle on the dance floor), I thought maybe UP grads here in California can start the younger generation’s association. Let’s do it, mutch!


• Organize my coupons.


• Organize my electronic recipes and find a recipe/grocery list software that I like.


• Re-paint the powder room.


• Re-furnish our bedroom. We now have to consider space for our little home office, Milo’s bed and his clothes because the other room has officially been assigned as the guest room, thanks to our exchange student from Japan coming next month.


• Volunteer my skills. I’ve signed up to volunteer for Taproot Foundation, an organization that provides people working pro-bono to help non-profit organizations with their campaigns. I’m guessing this will be the first I will be able to tick off in this list.


• Get a massage.


• Get patio furniture and plants for our yard.


• Keep the plants alive.


• Spend Christmas home in the PI.


• Redesign my blogs and post more often.


• Get a massage!


• Watch a movie in a theater (with or without Milo).


• Have a nice, quiet dinner with only my husband. Maybe I can even call that a date.


• Celebrate my birthday - really.


• Get a massage. (Maybe if I put this here more than once I can actually get it done).

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posted by meL @ 8:27 AM 0 comments

My 2009

Back in the beginning of 2009, right around my 30th birthday, I had this blog entry that I never got to post. As I read it again, almost a year later, I see that except for maybe a couple items, I still feel the same way.

20 Questions:

1. Where do I begin?
2. How can we come back home within a few years?
3. Why do some people care more about what I should have instead of my happiness?
4. Why is it so hard to respect those who do not respect me?
5. Why do I feel discontented despite all my blessings?
6. Why do I feel trapped, when we said we can always go back?
7. When is “always” going to happen?
8. Why am I here in the first place?
9. How bad will life be if we come back home?
10. Really?
11. Why can’t I embrace this lifestyle the way other people did (and still do)?
12. Why is it so hard to not think about our life if we were back home?
13. Why is it so hard for me to find friends that share my pains?
14. Why am I still depressed?
15. Why does having no steady income make me feel like a failure?
16. When should I start doing something for myself, something I truly love? (I decided to volunteer my skills to Taproot Foundation, where I will be working with a team pro-bono to help with marketing campaigns of non-profit orgs. I’m starting next year. Perhaps this will help.)
17. Why did I ever think I will have time to start my own business when taking care of my family takes 24 hours in a day?
18. Why are there only 24 hours in a day?
19. Why is it so hard to not think about all these things?
20. When will my questions be answered, if at all?

Maybe it’s the holiday blues kicking in full gear, or maybe it’s really just me. I know I have to keep things in perspective, because there really is so much to be thankful for: my family is healthy and whole, I have a husband who loves me and works hard to provide for us and a son who brings us joy. We are very much loved and blessed. That’s all that truly matters, right?

I just wish reminding myself about these 20 times a day can make me feel better.

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posted by meL @ 6:45 PM 0 comments